I heard Rachel Platten's song, Fight Song, on my way to work. I wrote back in December how this has been a personal fight song in my life. This time there were new words that stuck out to me. The lyrics go, "All of those things I didn't say, wrecking balls inside my brain, I …
Month: January 2019
Interview Today
I have an interview in about 45 minutes for a new position in a new location in my company. I don't know if I want it, but I know if I don't inquire more and interview that I will regret not making a formal decision on the matter. I currently work full time at a …
Why Is Getting Help So Expensive?
I just got a bill for the first two days of the 7 day Partial Hospitalization program. It cost $2,994 for 2 days. TWO days. My insurance covers $2,144.41 and I am left to pay $849.59. Now, $850 is much better to pay than just about $3,000. However, $850 is about $100 less than what …
This Past Weekend
I noticed recently that I was feeling a bit more manic for a few days. Just when I started to type this it hit me that it could have to do with not being on the Abilify for a week. Mania can take on different forms for different people. It can on variations of different …
Missing A Dose of Meds
I still do not have a new psychiatrist to help me manage medications. I will be honest that I haven't looked into finding one as much as I probably should. However, my brain can only process so much in one day and most of my mental energy is given to work. Until recently I was …
I’m Still Here
I haven't been writing because I have been having physical pain in my hands and wrists typing. Might be carpal tunnel. Not sure. I've also been a bit groggy with my new meds too making normally easy tasks a bit harder. Mentally I am much better 🙂 Just wanted to check in with everyone. Happy …
Unified
I'm currently sitting in the hospital (ER) waiting on some blood work and EKG results due to the recent problems I've been experiencing in my body. Mentally I'm in a good spot, but physically not so much. Anyways, there are two mental illness patients here. Both females. One is in lock down in a chair …
Not Feeling Well
I have been feeling out of sorts the past few days. Each day seems to get a little worse. I'm not sure if it is my med adjustments and/or new meds or if my physical body is getting weaker. My memory gets a bit foggy during the day. This afternoon around 3pm it shut down …
I Got Inked
I did it. I got my tattoo tonight. I realized a few more symbolisms for where I placed it. First, it is on my wrist, which can be visable at times, but most of the time it is hidden. Only from time to time when my tattoo is hidden will I pull up the sleeve …
A Little Sunshine Today
Today was unusually warm and full of sun for December in Massachusetts. I took a moment to pause today basking in the sun shinning through the window in my room.
My Life With Mental Illness 