I discharged from my outpatient program last Friday. I am proud of myself for sticking with it, especially since it was a long program (about 1 1/2 months). I do feel more confident in being able to move forward with my life again outside of program, especially as this week has gone on. There is …
Acceptance of Myself
Today we had a discussion on our values. We were given a list of a lot of values that we were to check off as very important, important, or not important to me at this point in my life. The first two I marked as most important, that also go hand in hand for me …
Unhelpful Thinking
In PHP we recently did a session on unhelpful thinking styles. At the end of this post is an image of what the handout sheet they gave us looks like. We also did another session about the inner critic. Both of these were helpful for me because I do struggle a lot with negative self …
Another PHP
I recently retuned to another PHP (partial hospitalization program). I'm not a fan of calling it "partial hospitalization" because I'm not in a hospital. The program is located in a nice facility. I attend the program Monday-Friday from 9:30am-2:30pm. This is the 3rd PHP program that I have attended over the past 5 years. When …
4 Year Later…
Wow, so it's been just over 4 years since I wrote my last post. I lost motivation for journaling, but I recently have re-discovered it and want to connect with people again. Since the last time I wrote, I got back into a full time job in property management, then moved to MD from MA …
Depression Mixed With Anxiety
The slow climb down into depression begun a few weeks back. I guess I have been feeling a little depressed since late March/April with feeling stuck due to the pandemic. However, since my parents came home in early June the slow depression ramp begun to descend and anxiety has found a way into the mix. …
Feeling Trapped
I moved back to MA from PA late March. I moved back to my parents house as I was no longer able to afford rent losing work due to covid-19. I had the house to myself for 2 months as my parents were still living at their house in Vegas. They returned yesterday. Since their …
We Need More Positiveness
My last post was an update and also a way to vent. I've been pretty grouchy lately. I know that part of that comes from the state of everything at the moment and things I cannot control. Part is also from being off two meds. Even with my frustrations at my situations, the world, etc. …
It’s Been a Long Month
It has been a long month for all of us. For me, I stopped driving for Lyft in Pittsburgh because due to everything shutting down, there were no rides to give. I moved back to MA, "celebrated" my 40th birthday (which was pretty boring and kinda lonely), am currently living by myself at my parent's …
The Dreaded Question: “And what have you been up to?”
I reached out to a friend from college that I haven't spoken to in years on Facebook. I'm genuinely interested to see what he is up to and how he is doing. And then I remembered that I will have to answer that question too. What have I been up to? I want to say …
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My Life With Mental Illness 