It has been about 7 months since my depession cycles started happening and about a month and half since the Outpatient program. While the depression cycles are not as bad and overall I have more motivation than I did back in December, I feel that each day is a struggle. Some days the struggle isn't …
New Hair Cut & Vacation
While driving home from work Thursday night I decided to cut my hair shorter. I didn't like it at first, but it has grown on me. I just felt like I needed a change. I'm glad I did it. It feels a bit refreshing. I also decided to book a trip to North Carolina for …
F-You Depression
I heard Rachel Platten's song, Fight Song, on my way to work. I wrote back in December how this has been a personal fight song in my life. This time there were new words that stuck out to me. The lyrics go, "All of those things I didn't say, wrecking balls inside my brain, I …
Interview Today
I have an interview in about 45 minutes for a new position in a new location in my company. I don't know if I want it, but I know if I don't inquire more and interview that I will regret not making a formal decision on the matter. I currently work full time at a …
Why Is Getting Help So Expensive?
I just got a bill for the first two days of the 7 day Partial Hospitalization program. It cost $2,994 for 2 days. TWO days. My insurance covers $2,144.41 and I am left to pay $849.59. Now, $850 is much better to pay than just about $3,000. However, $850 is about $100 less than what …
This Past Weekend
I noticed recently that I was feeling a bit more manic for a few days. Just when I started to type this it hit me that it could have to do with not being on the Abilify for a week. Mania can take on different forms for different people. It can on variations of different …
Missing A Dose of Meds
I still do not have a new psychiatrist to help me manage medications. I will be honest that I haven't looked into finding one as much as I probably should. However, my brain can only process so much in one day and most of my mental energy is given to work. Until recently I was …
I’m Still Here
I haven't been writing because I have been having physical pain in my hands and wrists typing. Might be carpal tunnel. Not sure. I've also been a bit groggy with my new meds too making normally easy tasks a bit harder. Mentally I am much better 🙂 Just wanted to check in with everyone. Happy …
Unified
I'm currently sitting in the hospital (ER) waiting on some blood work and EKG results due to the recent problems I've been experiencing in my body. Mentally I'm in a good spot, but physically not so much. Anyways, there are two mental illness patients here. Both females. One is in lock down in a chair …
My Life With Mental Illness 