I discharged from my outpatient program last Friday. I am proud of myself for sticking with it, especially since it was a long program (about 1 1/2 months). I do feel more confident in being able to move forward with my life again outside of program, especially as this week has gone on. There is …
Tag: Mental Illness
Acceptance of Myself
Today we had a discussion on our values. We were given a list of a lot of values that we were to check off as very important, important, or not important to me at this point in my life. The first two I marked as most important, that also go hand in hand for me …
Another PHP
I recently retuned to another PHP (partial hospitalization program). I'm not a fan of calling it "partial hospitalization" because I'm not in a hospital. The program is located in a nice facility. I attend the program Monday-Friday from 9:30am-2:30pm. This is the 3rd PHP program that I have attended over the past 5 years. When …
The Dreaded Question: “And what have you been up to?”
I reached out to a friend from college that I haven't spoken to in years on Facebook. I'm genuinely interested to see what he is up to and how he is doing. And then I remembered that I will have to answer that question too. What have I been up to? I want to say …
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I Am Moving Back to MA
I moved back to Pittsburgh, PA from Massachusetts back in July for a job. (I lived out here from 2012-2017) I moved back to be closer to the female friends I have out here. I moved back because the cost of living is cheaper than in MA. I moved back to be on my own …
Goodbye Birches
Today was my last day at the Birches program at Brattleboro Retreat. It has been two and a half weeks. I am not 100%. I don't think I will ever be at 100%, but I am doing better than I was when I drove into the campus on June 4th. I have to keep reminding …
Poem: “I Bend”
I bend but do not break. I've been lost, but I'm not a loser. I'm a wreck, but I'm not totaled. I'm fractured but not broken. I've failed, but I'm not a failure. I've fallen hard but can get up again. I'm isolated, but still I'm free. I have been destroyed but will rebuild. My …
I Still Have A Lot of Fight in Me
I've been at the Brattleboro Retreat Center since Tuesday. The out patient program called Birches runs Monday - Friday. I'm in the full day program from 9:00am to 3:00pm. I'm also staying over nights there at their "dorms" in the Ripley Building. I was nervous coming up here, but since I've been here I have …
It Has Been Awhile
It has been awhile since I have blogged. Not because I haven't wanted to, but because my best thoughts are usually when I am lying in bed at night. I am finally on a new medication that seems to be gradually working as the dosage has slowly increased. I am not as depressed as before …
My Life With Mental Illness 