The past week the “anxiety monster” has come back into my life. While I have experienced moments of anxiety over the years since being on meds, I haven’t had full blown anxiety attacks. But that has changed.

I know that it is due to being overwhelmed at work added to my already struggles with anxiousness not being able to stay on top of my daily activities and life. I don’t know how to handle the work situation. I want to take a medical leave or quit, but I cannot do either as I need income and I need health insurance for meds. I feel trapped.

I’m finally meeting with a psychiatrist tomorrow. I’m hoping that he can help get me in the right direction and function better. I hate feeling worse each day during this battle. Mental illness sucks.